Summer or something...

Sorry I Haven't been around in a while summer time been spending it with my son. Summer started off kinda rainy now it's getting better. Been going to the library, Taekwondo classes for now. Hope to make it to the beach soon. My headaches have been really bad lately on some new meds not working well though, nothing new to me. I hope the nice weather continues so we can make it to the beach before summers over. I did make a few new jewelry pieces 2 necklaces one hemp and one seed beads. I'm trying to get back into making jewelry more just finding time between not sleeping at night and getting a hours of sleep in the am with my son home this summer. My son starts High School in the fall he seems excited, as well as he wants to try out for the football team and wrestling as well. I hope he gets involved in some teams or clubs in high school, it will keep him busy as well as his Taekwondo classes. I always say I will write more often but I never do so I can't promise that. Here is a picture of one of the necklaces I made.

I know been awhile...

I haven't been on here in awhile just a lot going on.   My son got his new belt in Taekwondo.  My stepfathers mother died whom I have known since I was 4 and my  son turned 14.  I have been very depressed lately, nothing new there.  School is almost done I have to figure out some plans for the summer, I know we will go to the town pools a lot we like to stay cool.  Maybe hit the beach a few times.  I am really NOT good at keeping busy.  I need to get better at that. I need to work on my jewelry too but I still lack motivation.  I lack a lot of things I used to have.  I will try to write more often...

This past weekend

This past saturday I went to see A chours Line at the Bushnell in Hartford. The show was great! My son stayed with my mother and brothers he had a good time. He also got to see his cousin. The last few weeks have been a bit tough, I have been low on funds not a big deal I am used to it. On the other hand my son had learned a lot at his Taekwondo classes. He pretty much knows everything for the belt he is at right now. I'm still trying to get some motivation to make jewelry again no luck yet. Still have insomnia nothing new there. Other than that not much else going on I know I don't post much I really been slacking in that area. I have to try harder I suppose.

Exhausted

I am so tired this week, I can't seem to get much sleep.  Few hours each night/day when I can is all.  2-3 hours at most, it's very frustrating.  I have very little energy to do anything.  Otherwise I am trying to do what I normally do.  My son learned some new things at Taekwondo class this week since he got his new belt last friday.  This weekend the weather is supposed to be warmer I can't wait, I am really tired of the cold.  I  really am looking forward to spring/summer I like warm weather  I don't like cold weather at all.  If I sound a little off it's because I'm tired. 

Been awhile...

I haven't written anything in awhile I was sick with a stomach virus.   I'm finally feeling better a month later.  My son luckily didn't get sick just me.  I have also been depressed nothing new there.  More snow!  Just what everyone wanted right?  I hate snow I also don't like cold weather much.  I can't wait for spring and summer!  I am looking forward to going to the park with my son and maybe  spend time with friends outside at the pool or beach.  I would like to go hiking this summer maybe go to the amusement park.  I would like to stay active this summer and do some fun things for my son.  My son just got his Black Stripe belt in Taekwondo  He was very excited and worked hard to get this far.  His next test is in May, he will get his deputy belt then which he will have for 6 months he then tests for his 1st degree dan Black belt.  This will be a big accomplishment for him I am very proud of him.  I tried to get back into making jewelry again didn't really work no motivation.  I have had this problem for a long time I don't know what to do about it.  if anyone has ideas I would be glad to hear them. 

I haven't been on here in a while, the wisdom tooth thing really messed me up.  Finally feeling better now although I did run out of some of my medications for a few days.  I should have them back 1n a day or 2.  This month has been very hard for me with everything going on.  I have been trying to find ways to relax, I have started to get back into making jewelry.  I used to make it often it's really something I like to do.  My headaches have been bad lately, not much I can do about it.   I hope February is better we will see. 

Done with the wisdom so to speak

I had my last wisdom tooth pulled tuesday, took the dentist quite some time to get the tooth out just like the last one.  So far it seems to be better so we will see.  There was no school yesterday because of weather, I could not get my son to listen worth anything!  I asked him a few simple tasks pick up the kitchen floor, put laundry in the new laundry bin I bought, straighten up his room. I gave him all day to do these things, I reminded him several times to do each.  Maybe it is his age being a teen, I really don't know.  I don't allow him to play video games during the school week, he would never get his homework done if I did.  My therapist thinks I need to learn to relax, I already knew this.  Relaxing has never been easy for me I'm not sure why.  Probably why I have trouble sleeping and so on.  On another not I am good at listening when others talk, I do nice things for people all the time just because I feel like it.  I have always been like that for as long as I can remember.  I guess you could say I'm up late tonight but this is early for me, sometimes I'm up all night until my son leaves for school in the morning.  I try and get some sleep while he is at school unless I have appointments. 

Bad day

This weekend was okay, sunday was difficult I had planned on doing a few things.  I just couldn't get the motivation to anything at all.  I was tired, I really don't know just really didn't want to do anything.  I have days like this more often probably the season, I'm not sure.  Saturday was a busy day I did a lot, I am also up early today typing this I'm sure it will even out.   I have some appointments this week, one I'm not looking forward too the dentist.  I am having a wisdom tooth pulled my last one, last one I had didn't go well maybe this one will go better.  My other appointment is therapy for my depression I go regularly it helps to a point.  It is nice to have someone to talk to, I don't have much support otherwise.  I am glad that the holidays are over, yet winter is still here don't like the cold.  My son is back to school today after a week and a half off, YAY!  Just a little quiet for me during the day today.  He will probably be tired when he gets home, and have a bit of homework.  Homework is always first when he gets home, we may or may not go to Taekwondo  class tonight depending on how tired he is after school and homework.  My son is getting ready for school now, he catches the bus down the street shortly after 7 in the morning.  I am going to get some rest before I have to clean the house today.  The weather looks nice in the 40s,  Maybe some of the snow will melt.  I did see more snow saturday though, oh well it is the time of year. 

Just a start

I thought I would try something new this year, so I am going to start blogging and see how it goes.  I always have a lot on my mind so I thought this may be a way to help me get some things out of my head.  First of all I live in Connecticut  I am 35 a single mother,  to a teenage boy  who has ADHD/ODD.  He is quite a handful I do my best to give him what he needs.  We do spend quite a bit of time together.  My son takes Taekwondo class twice a week, he is a brown stripe belt right now he got that belt on December 20.  I am very tired most days, don't sleep well at all any of the time.  I have not slept well in many years.  My body has learned to function on less sleep 2-3 hours a day.  I was diagnosed with a Major Depressive Disorder Chronic almost 10 years ago.  I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder a little over 5 years ago.  I have dealt with depression my whole life, as long as I can remember.  The holiday season little before Thanksgiving until after New Years being the worst for me.  Really almost anytime can be bad depending on my moods.  There are little things that I enjoy, iced tea unsweetened with lemons my favorite beverage.  Potatoes, baked, boiled, fried, mashed, almost any way I can get them as long as there is NO CHEESE!  Yes I am picky!  I like what I like. Cheese pizza!  Anyway I'm hoping writing things in here will help me get them out of my head for one maybe give people an idea what goes on for someone who has been chronically depressed and raises a child.  I know this happens daily in the world, everyone can see it differently.  I'm about to pass out I know it's morning I didn't sleep well last night so I am going to take a nap before I take my son to his Taekwondo class this afternoon.  I will  add more here soon.