So I have communication issues... I always knew something was wrong, different.  I didn't know exactly what. I have a better idea now.


I'm different but everyone is unique.  I know I shouldn't care what others think I try not to but that's easier said than done. 


I have always been very emotional and it gets the best of me more than I can explain.  No matter what I say it never comes out right, I over think over speak everything. 


What can I do... nothing... whats done is done.  You can't unsay something.   Just because I have this issue doen't make it okay in anyones book.  It never explains it all. 


I've never met anyone who is as understanding as myself when it comes to "issues"  Even I am critical about some things but I blow everything off in the end. 


Life is complicated and it sucks then you move on. 


Doesn't mean you have to like yourself or the resultes ... I guess maybe I should or try to. Work in progress...




I obsess about things because they bother me, I know people think it's annoying and might not understand it... It's just part of who I am... I am sorry.


I do more apologizing than anything because of poor communication problems it is frustrating.  I have never known exactly what I wanted. I have been trying to figure things out best I can and make the best life possible for my son and myself for the longest time. 


I feel nothing will ever work out as much as I try to get things in order.  It rains on my parade so to speak.  I have not given up so far.... although it is harder and harder to keep going at this rate.

Again i've had trouble keeping up with this blog.  Oh well anyway... I have kept up with the healthy eating and some of the walking... 


I've lost 40 lbs so far I feel better.   I still have some issues with communication I doubt that will ever change. 


Trying to make this year better than last some things I can change others I can't.  Doing the best I can...